Friday, May 23, 2008
Arashi Blog Skin
Leks made me changed it XD
Well, he seriously didn't intend to make me change my customized blog to blogskins, well... I just felt more like... changing some stuffs XD LMAO. Leks-senpai ne? LMAO.
So yeah. I ain't really in the mood to joke around, I more feel like tired from thinking too much. Golly, this whole summer vacation is putting me under great big pressure. My head aches a lot, I can't sleep, I usually space-out and hotdog! I know it's because of me. It's because I tend to loose focus on what I want, what I want to say or do. And I'm so sick and tired of my self right now. I wish and pray he's not. But if I am, I guess he is too. Everyone gets the feeling right? My thoughts? Like if you say sorry more than a hundred times it won't work anymore on the same person. And yah... soooo much for that!! I'm really depress because of the heat. Hahaha, yeah, more like that. But it's raining lately... and it's still hot!! Or maybe OUR head's just hot? Well I hope a huge WAVE would ran over us to put the fire off. This is really absurb... I can't take it anymore, if you guys can & if he can, well... I can't. I really can't. And yahh... this is like... yah! I don't know what to do anymore ( ;___; ) I feel like everything's going to end. It's like a very thin plastic filled with a huge amount of water and if I gawddamn poke it with my fingers it'll dramatically explode, and I mean it! My head and my heart is soo like that. And I'm so sicked and tired of that feeling. Even if it was just 3, yes! 3 days! It's still... I don't know. I can't take it, if it concerns him, yes I can't take it! Not even a single day can I take it. It's just too harsh! Too painful! And yah. I still don't know what to do. Hahaha, anyhow, we need to brighten up, and yes, I believe I'll find myself successful if that's the case, but really, if he says that and if this continues on... I mean those two really HURTFUL things, I really really won't be able to take it! Well for a few months maybe, but really!! It would still leave a hot burning mark and it'll be months to erase. And yah, I'm ranting random stupid stuffs but still. I don't feel like getting mad, getting sad and I really don't feel like being happy nor giddy about anything, I honestly don't wanna feel anything at all! Well, yeah, so much for that. Hahaha, I still don't feel okay though ( ^___^ )
I guess I have to say thanks to Leks for pushing me on to the bright side, though I ain't dead yet, I feel more alive than sitting alone in a room thinking. Meg's been busy, and I guess I have no one to lean on. Thanks Leks, hope we could see each other soon. Well yah, he's been there when I've been feeling really... as in really down, and I'm glad he is, I can smile and I could still stop myself from crying, you know how great friends are ( ^___^ ) I'm so glad I met him.
Pray for your safety, and I'll pray for mines.
Just kidding.
Hope I'll stop ranting and feel okay.
We don't really know what tomorrow's instore for us. Even if I know we would still be in this condition, I still hope and pray that in the end of the day we'll finally be okay. I'll wait. Zutto. Zettai.
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Watashi wa Althea desu. A normal otaku.
I'm happy to have friends which will last forever, and I'm hoping for a longer relationship with my Anata.
Hope this upcoming new life will be a lot more wonderful than my past few years. Hoorah for college!
Let's create more memories together. Zutto zutto.
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i'll write it down in the death note;
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Layout features ARASHI from Johnny's Entertainment, Japan's Biggest Idol Agency.
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