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Friday, January 26, 2007

I'm A Lunatic XD

Mhmm.. first day of our Sports Fest.. t'was Wednesday, January 24.. XD T'was fun.. I get to be with him most of the time.. but not really.. mom didn't like it.. hahaha.. I don't get her.. pero.. yeah.. nevermind.. sooo yeah.. I got to be one of teh scorer in basketball (girls) for elementary.. and my throat kinda hurt for shouting too much.. but yeah.. I had fun naman.. I guess.. O.o.. hahaha.. XD Yeah.. I did.. XD Soooo yeah.. my family are hating me more than ever.. Hmmm.. well.. our cheer sucked.. and we don't really give a damn about it.. hmmm.. anu p b..? There wasn't much to it.. is there? Well.. I was happy nman.. but my mom didn't notice it.. did she? What's wrong ba if I sit in one corner.. and curl on my knees if I'm sleepy.. masyado daw aqung maarte.. ohh.. I see.. maarte pla un.. mmkay then.. hahaha.. so.. it's wrong pla if you don't wanna play.. it's wrong pla if you feel sleepy.. Fine.. it won't happen again then.. maglalakad nlng aqu ng maglalakad..

Hmmm.. so yeah.. Thursday was teh "continuation" of that Sports Fest.. it's more like, our turn. We won most of the games.. "most".. hahaha.. but.. what's more to it.. Shams not there.. I was like.. crazy.. when I got to school.. master reminded me agad na his not there.. well.. I do know that.. he did told me.. and yeah.. I was spacing-out of most the time.. and Emo suddenly said.. "Shamir!" I snapped out of it.. and looked at her.. "Huh? Shamir?".. she laughed and said.. "I said 'Come here', not 'Shamir'".. hahaha.. mmkay then.. XD.. I was.. really sad that he's not there.. it's like.. all I could hear is "Shamir".. and all I could see is "Shamir".. sigh.. even when I close my eyes.. I see him.. I see him and his get up the day before.. sigh.. I just missed him soooo much that.. that.. when I was near that gate.. all I ever do was stare at it and wait for someone familiar to come in.. but then.. wla e.. matagal pla cla dun.. XD Hahahaha.. But yeah.. he's here na... kaninang umaga.. and yes.. I got insane once more.. dahil dun sa "utos" ni master.. amf.. kc.. c "mistress" din e.. she told me to do it.. so yeah.. waaaaaaaaa.. and now.. he has been talking about it.. but.. but.. it was master.. he told me to.. waaaa.. it wasn't me.. it was him.. masyado lng kc aqung obedient sa knya.. kya nga.. ayaw qu sbhn un e.. kaw p.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. pero.. you promised naman e.. kya mmkay then.. XD sweeee.. so yeah.. nothing much happened todie. O.o.. nga b? Hmmmm.. I think sooo.. O.o.. awarding lng nman meron e.. hmmmm.. ooohhh yeah.. thanks for teh ice tea and teh candy daddy.. ^_________^

LOVE & JOY

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Mmmmm..

Hay.. Something quite "wrong" kept on happening.. though.. not really.. t'was my fault.. XD Sigh.. And I'm sorry.. for what I did.. I feel soo stupid.. so stupid indeed.. and I'm sooo sorry.. I really am.. sigh.. I will bring my self to trust.. don't worry.. I will.. "It is human nature to doubt".. "it is better to believe than to doubt a person's kindness.." "SO SOMETIMES, PEOPLE QUESTION ITS SINCERITY".. it does make sense.. and yes.. I want to believe.. and I will do what it takes.. argghhh.. kc nman.. ang laki ng problem qu.. DX.. sigh.. wanqu b.. my mind is sooo dense.. sooo stupid.. so... sooo.. dumb.. I let my feelings take over me.. I don't think before I do such things.. I'm soooo sorrryyy... sigh.. but at least I have me trusty friend cutter.. I can finally lessen teh pain.. thank you for that.. and yes.. thank you for the letter.. it's quite funny.. kc.. it's like.. the likes of you don't take time to write one.. prang.. yes.. hindi prang.. it is.. ODD.. hahaha.. XD.. well.. thank you again.. really.. I appreciate what you said in there.. but.. yes.. it didn't make me feel better.. but at least.. I know what's on your mind.. thank you.. it is better than good daddy.. ^^

I had fun today.. XD I'm sooo glad to be by your side.. >/////<

LOVE & JOY

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Nostalgia

I've been remembering memories.. and sorts of stuffs of the past few months..years.. days.. weeks.. it made me tear.. I just remembered.. the feelings I kept for my master.. and then.. it just suddenly went weeee.. it was gone with the wind in just one snap.. I guess.. I just let teh pain kill itself.. poor pain.. it died from his own torture.. *tsk tsk* But.. I guess that wus good.. since.. Carla wouldn't say yes to him.. just because of me.. I love Imo so much.. she's such a good friend.. *sigh* Pero.. yes.. honestly.. talaga.. when I told Imo to say yes to him.. I didn't kept any "sama ng loob".. I wasn't mad or anything.. I don't hate them, and I'm not mad, actually, I wus hapoo. Mhmmm.. I'm not lying. Kaya nga, I wus annoyed with there tease na.. I'm mad at Imo, but I am not, I accepted the truth and let the pain I felt die. Dakara, I'm not that sad.

Wala lang.. I remembered it lang.. since.. I wus really in love with him, then suddenly, it was gone.. it was sooo fast.. that.. I didn't felt anything anymore. T'was kinda funny, but then.. I remembered lang.. (Well, I remembered these things 'cause of Dab-dab) how I jump for joy when I get to talk to him, his reactions when I say I'm jealous, his smile when I tell him he looks cute/hot/wafu.. I remember how I cry.. when I realize that.. all I could do is stare at him from afar.. I remember.. how I mop in the corner whenever I see him with HER.. how I feel stupid when I told him I like him.. I remember.. how I bug Meg whenever he glance at me in a fraction of second.. I just remember.. how I became sooo stupid for what I felt.. I just remember.. how insane I became.. because of him.. and remembering it right now.. is making me laugh and cry at the same time.. wala lang.. it's just that, I can't believe I once felt that.. waiting for someone for a year.. the feeling of being broken.. that.. it came to the point that you can't feel anything anymore.. that you've become numb.. and that all you know is how to love and wait for him.. and when it came to the point that.. he rejected you once more.. you still insisted of waiting.. until.. he found someone.. and you have nothing else to do but to let them be happy.. it's just making me sad.. but then again.. not really.. since.. I know my master is now happy with Imo, and knowing that, is making me happy as well, and that I could rest my mind and hope something better for our future.. Hahaha.. it's funny.. how I emote on something I forgot months ago.. hahaha.. but then.. remembering it made me feel.. happy..? complete..? stupid..? Whatever it is.. it still made me feel.. like myself once more..

LOVE & JOY

Friday, January 19, 2007

One And Only You

T'was teh last day of our exams, and Math was really a pain, I don't even know if I had scored even at least 20 points.. last quarter's exam was a lot easier.. buti p nun.. nakapasa aqu.. sigh.. Chem was quite easy.. but I'm not really sure with my answers.. as far as I know.. alam ko na nasagutan qu lng un.. XD So yeah.. nothing much happened todie.. 19 days n nga lng..

So yeah.. nung Tuesday.. binuhos qu lhat ng sadness sa ice-cream.. XD I was shivering in cold.. eating a half a half gallon (kalahati pa ng half gallon) in front of an aircon.. made me shiver.. XD Pero it was fun, hahaha.. di naman ako nainip sa kakahintay sa kanila.. XD At least nakakausap qu pa c Lex, Dab-dab, Inna, at Kim.. XD May nagagawa naman.. XD Hahaha.. basta.. tuloy-tuloy n puyat qu nun.. hay.. XD Mmkay lng.. masaya naman.. XD Nakakatamad din kc minsan matulog e.. ^^;

Aun, I got to watch naman what they did there.. dun sa mp4 ni Meg.. XD Hahaha~ I saw Daddy there 7 times.. XD Hirap niyang hanapin.. I hafta pause it pa.. whenever I see other people.. harhar.. tlgang pinagiinitan lng ni Meg ung mga halaman at cla Mark.. Jetz.. Ralph.. Patti.. cia.. mmmm.. un lng.. XD Laging nandun ung cam e.. buti nlng naisipan niyang i-swing.. yun. kita qu c daddy.. XD Hahaha~ I saw them.. I mean Mix and Fuufuu.. they were staring at teh floor.. sahig.. cement.. or kung anuman un.. they were funny.. di qu maintindihan.. bqt sa floor pa? XD harhar.. nandun daw kc c Nico.. mhmm.. mmkay then.. XD Buti p c Nico.. nakasunod.. XD Grr.. So ayun.. trip na trip n Meg ung mga Koi.. or something.. "they look mighty tastey".. line nia.. XD hehehe.. wanqu ba dun.. XD Aun.. may pasalubong na hat.. XD hohoho~ I like it nman.. XD it's pruteh.. prang cia.. XD hohoho~

Sooo yeah.. XD sooo much about that..hmmmm.. nagpost lng aqu.. pra la lng.. may naalala lng kc aqu.. yung tanong niyang "gusto mo na ba talagang mamatay" "kailan?".. hmmm.. gusto ko n nga.. para nman kcing.. wla ng saysay buhay qu.. pero.. di p nman e.. nandyan k p.. kya.. tska n.. after 19 days nlng.. XD bilis nman.. ala p 2 months.. shemeh.. XD Mmkay lng.. hahaha.. XD at least nga umabot ng months e.. este.. month.. hay~

Sabagay.. di qu n kailangan magcomplain.. at least nga.. pinagbigyan mu aqu.. kexa hintayin c Meg.. pinagbigyan mu muna aqu.. XD harhar.. thank you~ I appreciate your help.. at least.. hapee aqu ngaun.. XD Mhmmm.. I'm asking too much ata e.. xD sorry.. if I took some of your time.. pero. thanks for lending me some.. masaya na aqu dun.. ^^; Aun.. hahaha~ la lng.. hay~ la n aqung mxb.. XD di qu n maalala ung iniisip qu kaninang umaga.. XD hahaha.. bokit tlga.. XD

One And Only You - Parokya Ni Edgar

It took one look
And forever laid out in front of me
One smile and I died
Only to be revived by you

There I was
Thought I had everything figured out
Goes to show just how much I know
'bout the way life plays out...

I take one step away
But I find myself coming back to you
My one and only, one and only you... ooh...

Now I know
That I know not a thing at all
Except the fact that I am yours
And that you are mine

Ooh
They told me that this wouldn't be easy
And no
I'm not one to complain...

I take one step away
But I find myself coming back to you
My one and only, one and only
I take one step away
But I find myself coming back to you
My one and only, one and only you... ooh...

(As usual.. lagi aqung inaantok sa kantang yan.. ^^;)

LOVE & JOY

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Mmkay..? O.o..
Hapoo Monthsary Carla and Lei~!!

Yey! I can finally update once more.. moi computer is very slow.. how sad.. TT^TT.. demo.. it's owkay.. as long as I can use YM, everything is fine.. XD So yeah.. hmmm.. my life has been a burning hell, but then again, I am having fun at school~ Yehp.. lalo ng nung Friday, I wus with him almost teh whole time, I am sooo hapoo~!! Hahaha~ I love hugging him, he is as squeaky as a rubber ducky, his tummy is like a pillow, at ang bago nia n.n.. di ka amoy tatay, mmkay?

Sooo yeah.. XD hahaha~ Carlei has been crazy yestedie.. up to now.. XD Hahahaha~ we are both stuck whinning about teh same thing.. "obsession", hai~ we are both obsess.. ^^; though it may not seem to be.. Carla does know what's going on in my mind.. somehow.. hahaha.. XD sooo yeah.. it's sad daw 'cause the person she's obsess at doesn't feel the same way.. awww.. prolly he just doesn't want to show it.. mmkay? Sooo yeah.. XD hahaha~

I soooo love Shamir~!! I've been keeping screenshots of lotsa stuffs.. and I've been saving our chats on moi notepad.. XD hahaha~ Sigh.. pero.. it's a lot more different if I'm wit him.. teh feeling is a lot more nicer.. I mean.. hahaha.. XD basta masmasaya~!! Hay.. he is sooo wafu, wafu indeed~!! >////< Sobra~!! Napaka~!! He makes moi tummy go wrong.. like there are butterflies in it.. XD Hahaha~!! It makes me eat less tuloy.. prang.. wla aqung gana.. all I ever want to do pagganun is think about him.. sigh.. ang wafu tlga >/////< Hahaha.. hmmm.. sarap niyang kasama.. sarap niyang kausap.. sigh.. I was hoping to spend moi whole time wit him on teh field trip.. pero.. yeah.. nung binigay sakin ung reply slip para dun.. I never expected na papayag silang sumama ako.. soo.. yeah.. I wus right.. TT^TT Soo yeah.. nalulungkot parin ako.. hanggang ngaun.. pero.. haha.. la na meh magagawa.. sigh.. I'll prolly ask for load tom, so that I could text someone and ask whatever you might be doing.. I shall uberfeel sad.. pero.. yeah.. daddy said naman na.. we'll go to Makati on Tuesday.. well.. sana matuloy.. hay..

Daddy Shams.. sigh.. cute cute mu.. XD me loveh your jacketto.. it's sooo warm.. parang ikaw.. XD hehehe.. XD miss na kita.. sobwa.. sweeeee~ nakakabaliw.. @___@

I love you Daddy Shams >//////<

LOVE & JOY

Thursday, January 11, 2007

I'm Sick and Tired

I would really wanna go to that field trip to somewhere out there.. and I am sooo sad that I can't come.. yung mga sinabi nila dati na pagdating sa hyskul they'll allow me to go sa mga field trips.. outings... I know that the reason is not just the waver, nor was it unfair 'cause my brothers can't come, nor was the reason is we don't have money, for I volunteered to pay for my own expenses. What's more, it's my money and I want to spend it the way I want to, if ever they want to borrow it, I SHALL NEVER EVER LEND THEM ANY.. it's my money.. and they didn't let me spend it the way I want, so yeah.. that doesn't give then the right to borrow it.. they are annoying me.. and I'm getting pissed to the bone.. I sooo don't want to stay here at home.. I hate this place.. but I guess.. this is the only thing I have.. and I have no where to go.. I guess that's the sad part.. sigh..

So ayun.. I've been happy naman at school.. glad that Carla and Lei is fine na.. and I'm hapoo with daddy Shams.. XD So no problem with that.. it's just home that I hate.. HOME.. this word.. is very abominable.. I detest it so much.. I feel sad when I'm here.. I don't feel like doing anything.. I'm bored and alone.. I don't like this place.. I'm soo sick and tired of it..

Jump - Simple Plan

Jump

I don’t wanna wake up today
Cuz every day’s the same
And I’ve been waiting so long
For things to change

I’m sick of this town, sick of my job
Sick of my friends cause everyone’s jaded
Sick of this place, I wanna break free
I’m so frustrated
I just wanna jump (jump)

Don’t wanna think about tomorrow (jump)
I just don’t care tonight
I just wanna jump (jump)
Don’t wanna think about my sorrow
Let’s go, whoa
Forget your problems
I just wanna jump

I don’t wanna wake up one day
And find out it’s too late
To do all the things I wanna do
So I’m gonna pack up my bags
I’m never coming back
Cuz the years are passing by
And I’m wasting all my t-t-time

I’m sick of this house, sick of being broke,
Sick of this town that’s bringing me down
I’m sick of this place, I wanna break free,
I’m so frustrated
I just wanna jump (jump)

Don’t wanna think about tomorrow (jump)
I just don’t care tonight
I just wanna jump (jump)
Don’t wanna think about my sorrow
Let’s go, whoa
Forget your problems
I just wanna jump
I just wanna jump

I can’t take it anymore
I can’t take it anymore
I can’t take it anymore

Forget tomorrow
I just wanna jump (jump)

Don’t wanna think about tomorrow (jump)
I just don’t care tonight
I just wanna jump (jump)
Don’t wanna think about my sorrow
Let’s go, whoa
Forget your problems
Time to let them go
Whoa
Forget tomorrow
I just wanna jump (jump)
I just wanna jump (jump)
Yeah
I just wanna jump (jump)
I just wanna jump

LOVE & JOY

Friday, January 05, 2007

Everything's Wrong
Happy Birthday Wam~!

Yes.. it has been a shitty day for meh.. I didn't get to go to school.. half day na nga lng di p nakapasok.. sigh.. t'was because mah parents didn't get to wake up early.. and same for me.. we all woke up teh same time.. like 9:00.. and yes, I know I could still go, but then again, my mom said na, wala naman akong maaabutan dun, except enrichment and non-scout, which is not really important.. but, that wasn't what I had in mind, but teh fact that it's JANUARY FIVE~!!! FIVE~!! Amf.. knowing that I missed school, made me cry like crazy.. sa inis ko.. iniyak ko nlng lhat.. I am soooo pissed~!!! Sa lahat ng araw ngaun pa, as in ngaun pa tlga.. nakakabwisit.. sobra.. HAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY~!!!!! POTAH~!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hay.. so aun.. he like went here.. and left immediately.. parang SINASADYA noh? Kc.. ngaun pa nabwisit si lecheng tatay.. gs2 pa tlga niang magsabay kami.. amf~!! Naiinis ako.. sobra.. sobra tlga.. tangna~!! HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY~~

Sigh.. owkay.. enough na.. prang may magagawa pa ako.. sigh.. sooo aun.. at least we are a month na.. ^_________^ Yey~! So hapoo hapoo~!!! Hahaha.. sana tumagal pa.. XD sweeeeeeee~!! Sooo.. aun.. Hapoo Monthsary Daddy~!! Next month I'll be there na.. ^^; hopefully~!!

LOVE & JOY

Thursday, January 04, 2007

T'was A Good Day.. I guess
Happy Birthday Carlei~! You are now 10~! Err.. 15~!

I'm quite glad that I went to school today, even though Ms. Abenoja didn't came, at least, I QUITELY enjoyed this Thursday.. sooo yeah.. when I came, I talked with Dave on what we did this Christmas Vacation, and we worried about our projects.. homeworks.. and the suppose to be Chapter Test.. sooo yeah, Ms. Abenoja wasn't there, and we were glad.. XD After sharing the things we did the past few weeks, we went in teh classroom, and Carlei showed me her cute little baby pics, that looked like were taken yesterday.. XD Hahaha~! And yeah, it's her birthday today~! Happy Birthday~! ^_____^ Anywoy, I suddenly forgot to take off the pictures in my Math notebook, and ACCIDENTALY brought it home.. XD Sooo yeah, I'll stare at it before we sleep~!

Aun, we cleaned ewanness at school, and I was quite tired.. XD Hahaha~ Pero it was fun, I don't know why though.. I was a mess XD So yeah.. when I was cleaning, I really found their reactions.. funny..? XD Carlei said that "Prinny.. why did you do that?!? That is bad~!", and Mickey said, "OMG~! What did you do Thea? Seriously." (He was being gay.. xD), and David went, "Ano yan Ana?!? Hindi nga? Patingin.", and Master went, "Ano yan? Sugat?", hahaha~! They were seriously funny.. XD LOL

Sooo.. yun.. XD After cleaning, I went cramming~! Hahaha~! And glady, Leks was there to help, and I got to finish it.. XD Thank you so much Best~! Hahaha.. I was really nervous na baka hindi ako makapagpasa.. TT^TT

LOLness.. oh yeah~! Kanina, my tummy was like very upset.. not upset that I have to go to the toilet, the pain was different, and I felt it before when I didn't eat teh whole day, but that one was alot more worse. Though I can't believe it, I once tried not to eat for two days, and I never felt that kind of pain, but man, I can't even say that I didn't eat for a day kanina, since.. I just didn't eat dinner the other night, and not eat breakfast and lunch kanina, but god.. was that pain harsh? I can't bare it.. lalo na pagnakaupo, but standing up lessen teh pain.. ^^; Hahaha~! Soo yeah, at least there was this Burger McDo when I got home.. XD My hero~! LOL

Anywoy, aun, Vincent was really fun to talk to kanina, he wus funny.. XD Hahaha, and I'm glad he kept us company, for it was sad to have no one around except Meg who would just keep running around. Sigh~! Pero, yeah.. XD All in all, it was a good day.. prolly.. I just missed them.. kya.. XD Seeing them around, made me feel hapoo~! ^__________^ Hahaha~! Oh yeah.. before I sleep~! Carla~!!!!! You are sooooo cute~!!! >//////< And daddy, you look sooooooooooo HOT~!!!!!! >/////<

LOVE & JOY

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Glimpse of Joy

Finally.. a reason to be hapoo.. I am very very hapoo now.. I guess..? Hahahaha~! Basta, yes.. I am hapoo~! Sweeeeeeeee~! Not just teh mere fact that Carlei and Lei is now owkay.. (and yes.. because of teh stupid misunderstanding.. I'm glad they're fine now~!) but teh mere fact that he was here~! ^______^ Never felt happier this x-mas vacation~!

Sooo yeah.. he is as handsome as ever~! &________& He makes me go doki-doki~! Sigh~! ^_______^ So yeah.. Tilo was here as well, he is soooo funny (as ever).. he makes dull moment lively~! Lol lol lol~ Very much~! *nods nods*

Sigh~! La lng.. never felt hapoo ^________^ Hahahaha~! Sooo un.. meron din plang solution sa sadness na 2.. *nods nods* Soooo yeah.. XD hope I wouldn't be sad tom.. XD *sigh sigh*..

Sooooo yun.. what else? Hmmmm.. ahh.. yes~! Indeed~! He did not saw teh other cuts.. I am very very lucky indeed~! LOL Sooo yeah.. I don't like teh fact whenever he asks me if he could come around.. since.. I want him to.. but I don't want as well.. so yeah.. XD hahaha~! No point on telling.. *nods nods*

Soo yeah.. Mocha~! About teh "take back" thing.. I can't say those words.. honestly.. it's like.. I don't have the guts to say those words in front of him.. and I can only write it at his back.. XD LOL LOL~! *nods nods* I am soooo stupid indeed.. XD *sigh sigh*

Soooo yeah.. XD enough about this happiness~! I hafta worry about finishing teh other projects~! Lol Lol~! Sooo yeah.. screw teh teachers~! *rawr*

LOVE & JOY

Monday, January 01, 2007

Resolution?

Right, 2007 is here and I have no intentions on making any "New Year's Resolution", for I have breaked it in a thousand way. Plus, I have no intentions on changing moi, for.. as best said, "The most rebellious thing a person can do is be THEMSELVES." But really, one thing is for sure.. I don't want to change anything in me.. not even teh "lazy and greedy" part. Nope can do~! Never will I change, since being on procrastinator is already "MOI". So yeah.. I don't want to break anything anymore.. sooooo yeah.. quit promising things that you know is quite impossible.. for sure.. you can't keep it. Kya yeah.. forget about it.. blah blah to "New Year's Resolution".

Soo yeah.. New Year's Eve is the same as usual.. though it's a lot more better on ONE POINT~! Indeed.. only one point.. I didn't have a bad day.. though.. everything's been quite gloomy.. hahaha~! Yes, I wasn't hapoo, but I wasn't in a bad mood.. sooo.. yes.. XD

There wasn't a party or anything.. and yes.. I didn't join my family outside to see what's out there.. I stayed at teh computer and talked with Mickey at YM.. I'm glad he's there.. for he have kept me occupied.. I really really thank him for that, and yes, for Carlei, for talking to me.. though we really didn't talk that much.. I was glad I got to talk to her.. and share problems with her.. though.. she does most of the talking.

Sigh.. and yes.. New Year wouldn't be complete.. if I haven't heard daddy's voice.. though.. I wasn't really hapoo.. it DID make me feel complete.. at least for that "Gloomy New Year's Eve".

Soooo.. yeah.. nuthing much to say.. was just bored.. sigh..

LOVE & JOY