Love Situation _________________________________________________

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Lifu Lifu
Sighfu Sighfu

Yeah.. I watched Pirates of the Carribean: At World's End with Patti and Meg.. I really.. really like it.. XD I wanna watch it.. over and over again.. XD Mom said she'll rather watch something else.. since I already watched that movie.. XD So yeah.. what about Surf's Up? Or that movie about those penguins and that Chicken.. it's Surf's Up right..? Well.. anyway.. XD I'll be waiting for it.. XD

So yeah.. I'm really excited and nervous at the same time.. XD *sigh* Promotion test is up next week.. XD I can't wait.. XD

LoL.. so yeah.. nice to have you around kareshi.. XD

I guess there's not much to say.. crazy life..

LOVE & JOY

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

O.o.. erm..
Yeah.. o.O..

That was rather mean of you.. accusing me that I don't miss your hugs.. TT_TT.. kasi naman telling you that I miss you and your hugs wouldn't change the events of life.. TT_TT it's just that.. you'll know lng.. yun lng.. so please.. TT_TT don't ever tell me na buti pa ako nakakaya ko.. akala mo lng.. TT_TT *sigh* I'm sick of complaining.. and whining about the I miss you stuffs.. you do know na.. I've been whining about that for almost.. a week.. erm.. more than that.. and kahit naman ikaw.. alam mo na hindi maiiwasan un.. TT_TT nakakapagod n rin ng paulit-ulit.. baka mapika ka.. TT_TT tumigil lng ako sa kakawhine.. kakacomplain.. bigla nlng.. buti p ako nakakaya ko.. *sigh* well.. anywoi.. minor stuffs.. yaw ko lng na.. hindi mo malaman.. na.. namimiss rin kita and your hugs and kisses.. yeah.. ikaw mismo.. and everything you do.. I miss 'em all.. okay..? Kaya.. TT_TT hindi buti pa ako.. ayt? I love you..

Well.. erm.. t'was Meg's birthday yesterday.. t'was fine.. erm.. yeah..

LOVE & JOY

Monday, May 14, 2007

Pizza Hut Delivery..?
I wish I could talk to you.. a lot more often now..

I've been cranky the past few days.. but hey.. XD Crying on the phone made me feel a lot better.. even if I had to lie.. uso uso uso.. XD *sigh* I miss him soo much.. I hope I'll get to see him on Tuesday.. *sigh* Etou.. you may not know this but.. I learned to like myself a whole lot better.. ever since I fell in love with you.. you're all I'll ever need.. "uso" is bad I know.. but then again.. XD I feel awkward most of the time.. especially kanina.. dakara.. I tend to deny things.. uso.. XD

Aishiteru.. *sigh* "Okaeri nasai", I'll be able to say those words again.. without my cranky mood anymore.. XD Gomen.. honto ni gomen.. *sigh* well.. stay safe.. don't make me miss you too much.. TT_TT

LOVE & JOY

Sunday, May 13, 2007

You know that feeling..?
That strange old feeling..?

I asked my mom and dad to take us to bay walk.. since I feel so down whenever I'm at home.. I need to leave that house just for that day.. I feel so weak.. so sad.. so alone whenever I see that phone.. thinking about it makes me cry right now.. well we left home at exactly 12 midnight.. walked around.. bought some Zagu.. we didn't really stayed there that long.. like about an hour only.. that place is so.. so.. O.o.. you know.. so wrong.. I can't even seat on the bench.. it's so dirty and yeah.. so crowded.. it's a cursed place.. with stinkin' lovers.. I thought that leaving home and heading somewhere would make me forget.. but it only made me sadder.. ever got that feeling of missing someone? That.. when you see people doing stuffs that you likely do with one person.. it makes you feel so sad.. makes you wanna cry..

Gosh.. I cried badly when I got home.. I never cried that hard.. for a week or two.. it feels nice.. I know he has been busy.. that's why.. when he called me at about 11 am.. which is an hour ago.. it's really.. really hard to keep those tears in your eyes from falling.. I'm glad mama came.. I got a stinkin' chance to place the phone down and go home with her to get that usb.. I went back at Meg's place.. Shin opened the door for me.. and told me that Shams' at the phone again.. I never got the chance to talk to him for a couple of 10 or 20 minutes.. erm.. I think it was 5 though.. but anyway.. for the past 2 days.. erm.. was it one..? Erm.. something like that.. I only get to talk to him for like 1 minute.. and yeah.. wla ng kasunod un.. I know he's busy.. I'm not mad at him or something.. nor am I mad at anyone.. I know that it's his mom's orders.. I don't feel bad about it.. it's a family business erm.. affair.. erm.. something like that.. I have no right to interfere or to complain.. that's why.. I kinda got irritated with what he said on the phone.. and that endless sorry.. it made me feel like I'm the bad villain.. or some spoiled brat.. I understand naman e.. kaya nga I wasn't replying to your sorrys.. to your "kc nman".. I don't feel like arguing or more likely.. I don't feel like pushing what I really think.. erm.. or feel.. or something like that.. I'm in no mood to explain.. or to be.. that "it's okay I understand" person on the phone.. like it'll change your endless sorry..

*sigh* anyway.. the other thing that made me feel bad was that I didn't got the chance to say sorry as well.. I know.. it made you worry din.. since I'll probably get mad about it.. well.. no.. I didn't got mad.. I was just worried.. I just miss you.. and I was just wondering.. whether Shamir's okay.. if he's safe.. if everthing's alright.. where he is.. you know that stuffs.. those stuffs that makes you break down and cry.. but anyway.. yeah.. I'm sorry.. I wish to stay longer on that phone.. but controlling these emotions is one hard task.. even though I wanna call you right now.. I don't have the guts to do it.. I'm afraid.. and maybe I would cry.. which is one thing I don't wish to do.. since people would see me..

*sigh* So yeah.. I'm really sorry about earlier.. just.. please.. stay safe.. and don't worry about that thing.. that "if I'm mad or anything".. I just miss you.. that's all.. well yeah.. sorry about everything wrong I did or said..

LOVE & JOY

Saturday, May 12, 2007

Goin' Crazy - Natalie
Yeah.. remember this song..? I don't really fancy it before.. but then again.. everything can change..

Loveless AMV

Ever since the day you went away
And left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same
Oh baby no
When I looked into your eyes
The moment that I let you go I just broke down (down)

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
'Cause the feelin that I feel within no other man
Would ever make me feel so right

It's nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me
Right next to me
And I miss the way you hold me tight

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

That's right baby
Im goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you it's been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak
Can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me
And you want me
And you miss me
And you love me
I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you
Put it down be the woman for you

I'm falling so deep for you
Crazy over you I'm calling
Callin' out to you
What am I gonna do?
It's true no frontin'
It's you ain't no other
I can no longer go on without you
I just break down (down)

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

Crazy
Lady
Lately
Baby

Erm.. yeah.. sorry about earlier.. honto ni.. I wasn't really really as in honto ni not.. MAD.. nopeh-nope.. I was just a tad worried.. well.. not a tad.. but I was..

*sigh*

LOVE & JOY

Friday, May 11, 2007

Meg's right here.. O.o..
How amazing..

Oh yeah.. actually.. I'm at Meg's place.. and right now.. she's talking about Harry Potter.. O.o.. and guitars.. and looks..

Alert:
Etou.. people.. thanks for dropping by.. demo.. O.o.. reading this post is a no-no.. dakara.. yeah.. XD Lemme rant stuffs and lemme talk to myself, and Meg..

So yeah.. lemme start now..

Stupid.. stupid.. stupid.. everything is oh-so stupid.. everything's so wrong.. shit.. the hell with this.. I'm so messed up.. and I'm so fucking annoyed.. so fucking irritated..

Gahd.. I'm glad Meg's here.. I have someone to fucking lean on stupid shits..

Man.. I wish I'll get better soon.. I'm fucking suffering from this for 3 days straight.. erm.. a week.. or something like that..

Gahd.. I can't believe I'm saying all this stupid shit stuffs.. and man.. I'm cursing too much..

*sigh*

Why am I suuuu sad.. so irritated.. so pissed off.. sooo.. sooo.. gah!!! The hell with all this fucking stupid shit stuffs.. this stupid feelings.. stupid thoughts.. stupid me.. stupid stupid stupid me..

Ei.. no offense.. don't bother me to stop ranting.. to stop complaning.. 'cause I am fucking pissed off..

"Ellow" said Meg.

Woah.. O.o.. wadda hell was that?

"Trying to cheer you up, Thea", Meg said... oh-so suddenly. "I was talking to you!!", Meg ranted some stuffs... "I didn't know you were going to write it in there." she paused for a few second.. and fainted..

Man.. O.o.. this cousin of mine is going insane.. for cheering me up.. XD LoL.. she's funny.. glad she's here.. keeps me from a killing-spree.. *sigh*

Well.. anyway.. I'm actually at her place.. with her laptop.. *insane evil laughter*

Anywoi.. thank you for making me rant stupid random.. stupid shits.. stupid ewan stuffs..

We like random.. XD

And Meg's blabbering.. O.o..

Amazing..

Anywoi.. fuck off.. and stay there couch potato..

Gahd.. hate this fucking life..

"Ellow Meggy", Meg said oh-so suddenly again.. then suddenly shuts back up and suddenly laughed insanely..

Man.. Meg is oh so random today.. O.o..

Anywoi..

Thanks.. I shall go to my woe corner.. and eat all what I can.. stupid fucking life.. made me eat bunch of foods last midnight.. stupid.. gahd..

Anywoi.. thanks for leaving me alone..

I'm such a bitch.. wait.. no.. I'm an insanely-mad-otaku..

Well.. anywoi.. ranting random stuffs.. is sooo wrong.. O.o..

Well.. I give back this laptop back to Meg.. and gahd.. try to calm my fucking self down on stupid shit stuffs..

LOVE & JOY

Friday, May 04, 2007

Whattehfudgeh >______<
This is soooo annoying..

A cute something..
Tried to make me laugh.. ain't that effective.. ima.. demo.. kanina.. it did..

I really don't know why.. but I am currently pissed.. for a reason.. prolly it was because of my brother's.. annoying.. erm.. annoying.. something!! Argh.. this is sooooo wrong.. plus.. I am thinking too much.. well.. not really.. prolly because I lock sleep.. it's not really something to complain.. but.. *sigh* my mind.. is like.. it's about to explode.. I don't know.. I really don't know.. but I am currently pissed off.. no matter how I try.. it's just that.. parang.. nakakatamad magsmile.. ewan.. nakakainis lng tlga.. hay.. ang buhay.. laychi.. I can't even laugh.. laugh like I mean it.. *sigh*

Party Memebers
Remove Haseo from the invite list.. since we're the one who invites.. XD Etou.. a party is only consist of 3 members.. so yeah.. suckay..

Haseo
His first form..

Atoli
Erm.. yeah..

Gaspard
Izzat me? Or my bro..? O.o..

Silabus
He is gay.. OMFG!!

Pi
Yes.. old hag.. with big boobs and a big butt.. XD

Kuhn
Flirt.. *nod nod*

LOVE & JOY

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Hnn.. YM Voice chat..
I don't have a mic.. TT_TT

It took him 13 minutes to get to the point.. well not really.. XD It took him more than that to talk.. about his problems.. and yeah.. he talked for 34 minutes.. amazing.. I can't believe he could talk alot.. XD Well.. so much about that.. etou.. anyway.. thanks for the game..

Erm.. etou..

When you think of it.. it's similar with my thought.. a guy that I want.. is somewhat like that.. when you think of it.. ain't that Shams' doing..? When I read it.. over and over again.. it really does remind me of Shams.. well almost everything in there.. is what he is.. it's what he does and what he is.. one way or another..

Hahaha.. XD I'm glad you are mine.. very much.. still.. I believe.. I am luckier than you.. they too know it.. XD For letting you slip away.. some girls can be pretty dense.. XD I'm glad I didn't.. for this year, I didn't.. XD Thank God I could see clearly.. glad you came my way.. XD

I love you! I owe you everything..

LOVE & JOY