Friday, April 27, 2007
Argh.. >__<
I am such a mess.. uwaaa.. TT_TT
Err.. yeah.. fighting over overwhelming emotions.. argh.. this is sooo annoying.. TT_TT I know.. I know.. but gah.. this is killing me.. it's like.. I could kill anyone right now.. I am suuu pissed off.. TT_TT.. yes.. pissed off for no specific reason.. I don't even know why I have to feel this stupidness.. gah.. TT_TT So yeah.. I'll get over it soon.. err.. yes.. I just need mah medicine.. yes.. .hack//Roots coming right up~ *sigh* I wanna bang my head over that stupid wall.. but puu.. I have to pay for it if it ever gets damage.. or prolly my mom would bring me to some therapist.. or something like that.. TT_TT So yeah.. LOL.. be hapuu.. err.. yeah.. *lala la lala*
So yeah.. forget about those stuffs muna.. *sheesh* Erm.. so yeah.. XD Aloo.
Hnn.. etou, now that you've mentioned it.. it's a "yeah", ever since the first time I heard that song, I got to remember how.. err.. what I felt for you as a friend.. before.. err.. something like that.. you do understand.. ne? O.o.. Erm.. so yeah.. I'm not like you.. someone who expresses his feelings to the person they adore.. I only.. tell such things to close friends.. and they're good at keeping it.. sometimes.. I won't even tell anyone.. kahit kay Meg.. she's not interested on knowing anything naman e.. err.. so yeah.. same thing as usual.. "what's the point letting him knowing what's on my mind, it's only a waste of time." Same words would repeat on my head, over and over again. That's why.. I never told a guy how I felt for 'em.. except for one.. and I learned my lessons.. from him.. that's why.. when I started to like you.. it came to my mind that.. "I had enough, sides, being friends is the easiest way to get to know him any better.. and in that way, I'll be close to him, even if, we're just friends, at least I somehow mean something to him.. "a friend"." Ever since what happened, I only thought that we'll only stay as friends.. for that's what I had in mind.. and I intended to keep it.. honestly.. I will never confess anything to you.. for I thought.. that time.. that.. it's nice having you around.. talking with you.. you do know.. those stuffs.. don't you? I try to push you away.. since I don't wanna fall in deeper.. but I keep coming back.. I really like you.. mhmm.. as a friend you were fine.. but.. you do know.. things could go on different directions.. hahaha.. I fell for you.. and yeah.. kept my feelings for myself.. until you.. err.. yeah.. you.. *sigh*.. it's funny.. sana pala.. I met you.. before any of those stupid 2nd year days happened.. I wouldn't be feeling this stupid.. and suu.. dumbfounded.. but yeah.. XD Having you around right now.. making me see the mistakes I made.. making me change for the better.. making me feel better.. always there to watch out for me.. to care.. to love.. everything makes sense now.. that having you as a lover.. is a lot more better.. no.. it can't be measure.. yes.. than having you as friend, and had nothing to do but watch you from a far. Now I can see clearly, the wonderful things in life, and that dreams do come true.. at least one of them did..
Hahaha.. XD So yeah.. thanks!
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