Sunday, February 25, 2007
You have got to be kidding me..
Only a few months left.. until that flight to U.S.. and I still haven't spend enough time with him.. it's unfair.. but if he has to leave.. then it's meant to be.. it'll be okay.. but just imagining my last year in high school without him.. it'll be sad.. boring.. incomplete.. everything.. wouldn't make sense anymore.. but yes.. I did say that I've accepted it na if he'll be going sonner or later.. but it never crossed my mind that.. it'll be this fast.. this early.. I even thought that.. he'll be able to finish his high school years here.. but not this..
I know.. that this is a selfish demand.. but I really really want you to stay.. I want you here.. near me.. but that's tooo much to ask.. 'cause it's your parents decision.. and I understand.. I just can't live with the thought that you'll be leaving.. and it's coming nearer every passing day.. I feel dead.. I won't bare it.. but I have to.. 'cause I would really want to see you again.. not as a dead penguin.. and nor will I want to see you all transparent and stuffs.. I want you in the flesh.. it'll be better to wait for 20 years.. 30 years.. 40.. as long as I'll be able to see you again.. but I wonder.. will we be able to stay that loyal..? 'Cause 20 is a very very big number.. especially 30 and 40.. hay~ Malay.. kakayanin yan.. sana.. it wouldn't take that long.. will it..? 'Cause if you never come back after 11 years.. I'll really go and look for you in the U.S.. no matter how big it is.. mhmmm.. I'll go and start saving money for it.. I'll start.. on the very day you leave.. sigh..
Argh~ I feel stupid.. I can't really really bare it.. it's annoying.. I don't like this feeling.. I don't like it.. I really don't.. I don't want it.. I don't want it.. hay.. but tell me.. will our relationship end.. on the very day you leave..? Or will we continue counting..? Will we.? Even if.. we are miles apart, will we..? *sigh*.. I just really can't stop thinking about it.. and I'm sorry.. I'll try to forget it muna.. and spend everyday as if it is our last.. I'll do my uberultimate best to meet your expectations.. and your none stop question.. I still don't know what to answer.. and I can't believe that its this hard to think.. it's like.. 'that question'.. pero.. hanggang ngayon wla parin akong sagot.. blah.. this is crazy.. I still can't settle with one answer.. I'm too confuse.. but kareshi.. you're not pressuring me.. not at all.. nahihirapan lang akong mag-isip.. and sorry about that.. I'll continue on thinking.. and I'll try to make a decision as soon as possible.. and I wish I would think of a good one.. but you did say.. right..? That you'll still love me.. either answer I'll give.. right..? If sooo.. arigatou.. it's a relief.. to know that.. you'll accept me no matter what.. and hai~.. I too accept you.. no matter what.. no matter what will happen.. and no matter what happened in the past.. in your past.. I will still continue on accepting you.. and I will and will still continue on loving you.. no matter what.. no matter how big the reason is.. it wouldn't matter.. I would not want to break and eat my own words once more.. thrice is enough.. I wouldn't want it to happen again.. mhmmm.. I love you~ sooo much.. that I'll bare what ever trials Lord will give me.. I'll continue to love you even though we are miles apart.. and I will continue to accept you.. no matter what mistake you did.. no matter what.. I love you.
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