Sunday, January 21, 2007
Nostalgia
I've been remembering memories.. and sorts of stuffs of the past few months..years.. days.. weeks.. it made me tear.. I just remembered.. the feelings I kept for my master.. and then.. it just suddenly went weeee.. it was gone with the wind in just one snap.. I guess.. I just let teh pain kill itself.. poor pain.. it died from his own torture.. *tsk tsk* But.. I guess that wus good.. since.. Carla wouldn't say yes to him.. just because of me.. I love Imo so much.. she's such a good friend.. *sigh* Pero.. yes.. honestly.. talaga.. when I told Imo to say yes to him.. I didn't kept any "sama ng loob".. I wasn't mad or anything.. I don't hate them, and I'm not mad, actually, I wus hapoo. Mhmmm.. I'm not lying. Kaya nga, I wus annoyed with there tease na.. I'm mad at Imo, but I am not, I accepted the truth and let the pain I felt die. Dakara, I'm not that sad.
Wala lang.. I remembered it lang.. since.. I wus really in love with him, then suddenly, it was gone.. it was sooo fast.. that.. I didn't felt anything anymore. T'was kinda funny, but then.. I remembered lang.. (Well, I remembered these things 'cause of Dab-dab) how I jump for joy when I get to talk to him, his reactions when I say I'm jealous, his smile when I tell him he looks cute/hot/wafu.. I remember how I cry.. when I realize that.. all I could do is stare at him from afar.. I remember.. how I mop in the corner whenever I see him with HER.. how I feel stupid when I told him I like him.. I remember.. how I bug Meg whenever he glance at me in a fraction of second.. I just remember.. how I became sooo stupid for what I felt.. I just remember.. how insane I became.. because of him.. and remembering it right now.. is making me laugh and cry at the same time.. wala lang.. it's just that, I can't believe I once felt that.. waiting for someone for a year.. the feeling of being broken.. that.. it came to the point that you can't feel anything anymore.. that you've become numb.. and that all you know is how to love and wait for him.. and when it came to the point that.. he rejected you once more.. you still insisted of waiting.. until.. he found someone.. and you have nothing else to do but to let them be happy.. it's just making me sad.. but then again.. not really.. since.. I know my master is now happy with Imo, and knowing that, is making me happy as well, and that I could rest my mind and hope something better for our future.. Hahaha.. it's funny.. how I emote on something I forgot months ago.. hahaha.. but then.. remembering it made me feel.. happy..? complete..? stupid..? Whatever it is.. it still made me feel.. like myself once more..
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