Friday, December 22, 2006
I'm Fine..
I wrote this already in my "BLUE DRAGON notebook".. soo yeah.. I wrote it when I woke up.. I would like to post it lng.. yes.. very.. (editted though)
Morning again, I feel wrong, but then Christmas will be in, in 3 days of long wait.. so yeah, Merry Christmas minna-san~
Anywoy, despite the fact that I feel wrong today, I was kinda happy.. first thing in the morning, his face was the first thing that came in my mind. I was happy, but then I felt sad, remembering what happened yesterday. I was not mad and all.. I was just sad, not because you kept on insisting that I was mad, I always feel this way.. insecure and pessimistic. I never think positively - except for my friends..
I was not sad because you went at Meg's house to give her, her present and not on the fact that "Tumawag daw si Shamir kila Meg pag-uwi niya." (my mom told me that), I was sad on what Ryan said nung nalaman niyang you went and called Meg.. and those words will never ever leave my mind.. "So, sa tingin mo ikaw mahal niyan, e mukhang Meg parin." (that's what my mom told me din.. before we went to Shop Wise..), yes.. hindi ako nakapagsalita.. I was dumbfounded. A moment of silence.. But then, daddy spoke up and said, "Hindi naman ganun yun." Hai~ I would like to thank him for that.. kung di, wanqu na.. XD hahahaha~
I do know that you don't like the fact that I think this way.. that you are "cheating" on me. Well.. I don't really have that "cheating" thing in my mind.. pero.. the fact that you like her is what keeping me in pain. Sabihin mo mang hindi na, wala na 'yon, hindi naman ganun kabalis mawala ang feelings mo sa babaeng hinangad mong maging "girlfriend". Kaya nga sabi ko sayo.. ako yung swerte.. If ever wala na nga.. ganun din.. masakit parin.. for the fact na.. kapalit lng ako dahil alam mong wala kang pag-asa sa kanya.. "Walang kwentang lalaki, kung gusto niya talaga si Meg, sana matuto siyang maghintay".. sino kaya maniniwala sayo na kaya mo maghintay sa kung anu man.. kung si Meg nga hindi mo kayang hintayin.. hay~ Pero yeah.. wala na yan.. scratch 'em out.. it does not matter anymore.. since Nov. 20.. alam ko parin na "Meg", up to now.. so yeah.. wish ko lng nman n.. "don't ever lie again.."
I love you~ very.. that I will accept everything about you.. even if I'll get hurt.. wether my thoughts are right or wrong. Don't be bothered by it.. they're just thoughts that is keeping me in pain. Don't feel wrong about it, for I don't think bad about you.. I just feel/think bad about myself. I'll love you, even if the time would come that you'll love somebody else. I'll accept the truth.. and live with it.
I trust you.. but I don't trust myself.. all I need for now.. is your understanding ego.. and your love.. bare with me..
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What's In
They sure occupies my mind alot O.o
1. Shamir Isaac Fernando Francisco Remigio
As always.. what do you expect? Lawl~ The person I love most.. I value him more than I value my life.. I'll die for him if that's what he likes.. ^_____^
I may be a pain in the head.. but I'm glad na kaya nia akong i-handle.. XD I love him~ everything about him.. XD I love the way he kisses me.. I love the way he hugs me.. I love the way he loves me.. I love the way he squeaks.. I love the way he speaks.. I love the way he eats.. I love the way he sleeps.. I love the way he dress.. I love the way he acts.. I love the way he thinks.. I love the way he reads.. I love the way he laughs.. I love the way he lives.. I love the way he makes me feel secure.. I love the way he shows his care.. I love him and everything about him~ Very much~! No one can ever replace you~
2. Suicide Club
Yes.. a movie I found will browsing Wikipedia.. XD lol~ it was aired last 2002, and yes.. it has an awesome story~ I love it ^________^ I do hope I could watch it.. TT^TT
3. Ai Maeda
Yes~! I love her ^______^ she is very pretty~ and kyaaaa~ she has a poker face in BR II~ Kyaaaaaaaa~ I love her~ She is way better than Aki Maeda.. sweeeeeee~
4. AppleSeed
I just can't take pretty Deunan's face out of my head.. O_O she is very gorgeous~
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HP Shopwise
Sweeeeeeee~ yes.. I am wearing my favorite T-shirt~ it's kinda gray but kinda green.. XD sweeee~ I love it very very much~ hahaha~ lawl.. Anywoy.. yeah.. we went to Shopwise.. it was quite boring though.. all I did was walk and follow my mother.. XD Yeah.. I played a trick wit my brother Ralph~ I told him to close his eyes and that I'll take him to Pluto that he would never have a chance to come back here on earth. Sooo yeah.. niligaw ko cia sa Shopwise (ang liit nman nun e).. pero nakita nmin si Daddy.. pero wanqu b dun.. bigla nlng tumakbo at kya daw niang bumalik kay mommy.. e sus.. 3 stands lng nandun n cla mommy.. pinalayo lng nia sarili nia.. so un.. me and my dad went to mommy.. tpos cia wla prin.. LOL.. tpos nakita qu tumatakbo.. papunta dun sa mga junk foods.. XD naligaw nga~ weeeeeee~ dinaanan n nga kami.. di prin nakita.. XD lawl~ Kaya daw niang bumalik ahh.. XD sweeeeeeeee~
Soo there.. XD lawl~ I just played with my gum and pretended that it was braces.. TT^TT.. I do hope to get one.. pero.. my teeth is fine daw.. no need for it.. TT^TT Sad~ sooo yeah.. when we were about to pay for those goodies.. I saw a pretty-white-tall girl.. and guess who? Sweeeeeeee~ it was MEG~! Hahaha~ what a coincidence.. XD she was with Auntie.. they just thought of taking groceries as well.. since Auntie is kinda pissed with nanay.. very very long story.. XD soo yeah.. I still played with my braces.. ahhh.. I mean gum XD.. and yeah.. so as the story goes.. then yeah.. we're back home.. xD sweeeeeeeeee~ nothing much happened.. I miss him lang.. TT^TT
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i'll write it down in the death note;
Digital Camera
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Summer Tour 2007 Final Time: Kotoba no Chikara DVD
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